How did I get here? Everyone has those reflective moments in life where they need to stop and answer that question. How did I end up with a heart for the Marshallese people and two Marshallese kids? How did I end up an attorney and pastor? How did I end up learning how to build websites? How did I end up with an interest in profit & loss statements, cash flows, income, and business acumen? How did I learn how to lead other people to accomplish what seems impossible?
All good questions for me right now. Today, my youngest son turns one. It's been a very rough year. He's been plagued with medical problems that we still don't fully understand. Monthly blood draws, a feeding tube in his stomach, and more doctors appointments than I can keep track of. Remembering his heritage, the U.S. dropped 67 nuclear devices on his ancestors' homes in the 50s and 60s. I can't help but wonder if the effects of those tests are still lingering today.
Attorney. Pastor. Historian. Cultural anthropologist. Businessman. Technology fan. Husband. Father. Adoption advocate. Foster care advocate. Board member. Academic. Reader. Reading more. Learner. Teacher. What an odd combination! In what has been a season of difficulty, I can't help but reflect on this oddity and see how God has created me as a unique person. Like David, I have to say "I will give thanks to You, for I am fearfully and wonderfully made; Wonderful are Your works, and my soul knows it very well." (Ps. 139:14). I can't help but recognize that as God told Jeremiah, He knew me before He even made me (Jer. 1:4). I can't help but listen to God's words for Israel and imagine the possibilities when He said, "I know the plans I have for you...plans to prosper you...plans to give you a hope and a future." (Jer. 29:11). With such a diversity of experiences I've lived thus far, of passions God has given me, of lessons I have learned, of skills I have developed - I can do so much to help others. I can drive profitability and be a shoulder to cry on. I can manage risks and take them. I can advocate, negotiate, mediate, arbitrate, remediate, alleviate, remunerate, and accelerate. I guess I can even rhyme a bit.
Thank you, God, for making me the way You did. I look forward to whatever lies in the great Undiscovered Country!
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I follow Christ. I have a beautiful wife Megan and three wonderful children, Harrisen, Rebekah, and Carter. I have an M.Div. from Liberty Baptist Theological Seminary, am licensed to practice law in several state and federal courts, and live in Rogers, Arkansas. I write a blog and produce a podcast. And I do it all that others may know Christ.